you know black- is this year's pink

Mood: Bitchy, if you would excuse the language.
Listening To: "Dancing Through Life" from the Wicked soundtrack
Reading: Dangit, I need some good books.

Blah. I've been feeling pretty depressed and mean this past week. I dunno. I keep getting in fights with my mom, I keep feeling down on myself, and I don't know why. It feels crappy. I've been snappish and rude, and the only way I feel somewhat happy is if I'm listening to my music alone. And lately, my music has been the Wicked soundtrack, and that makes me feel worse because it makes me miss all sorts of people, and I feel sorry for Elphaba, but then I feel kinda better. I don't know what's wrong, and I wish... I don't know.

Gah. I sound like a whiny emo girl. Sorry. I hate sounding like this.

People have been getting on my nerves lately, and it's not because of them, it's me. I hate that.

So, I'll be all right later, I guess. I hope.

I've got a parade on Monday (I'm in the Color Guard), and then on Saturday (the 9th), I'm leaving for California to see my cousins, my brother (whom I haven't seen for five years), and my niece (whom I've never met). So, I think by then I'll feel a lot better because I haven't seen my family for a long time.

Mur.