the sheep aren't sleepin' any more

Mood: Fetching nervous.
Listening To: Some TV show my brother is watching, but "June Is Bustin' Out All Over" from Carousel is stuck in my head.
Reading: "Wicked" by Gregory Maguire

Ugh. Callbacks were last night. We had to sing "You'll Never Walk Alone" and I figured I'd do pretty good, but then we had to sing the part where it rockets up to E's and a high G. That is not my range. I am an alto almost through and through. If you want me to sing that part, expect me to sing softly. So I did sing, quieter than I should have, and I went home early. I didn't even get to read.

I understand that I still have a chance to get in the chorus, I understand all of that, but I feel like I've failed because I sang too quiet. My friends told me I hit every single note, but I don't think that LaForge could hear me way out in the audience. So now I'm really scared. I'm afraid I might not make it. Sure, I can sing (within my range), I can act, but dancing? ...Let's not go there.

The list is going to posted around 10:00, so my mom's taking me at 11:00. I'm shaking, and it's only 9:58. I feel sick, I feel like crying.

I cried all last night, and tears come whenever I think about callbacks. I'm so scared.

<3 - brittany