anywhere you go let me go too-

Mood: Sick, but pretty happy.
Listening To: "All I Ask of You" from Phantom of the Opera.
Reading: 1984 by George Orwell.

Hoo. Homecoming was on Friday, and...

WE WON. Yes. I was very glad. I didn't watch much of the game, I mostly just danced with the band, but it was great. Yes, I danced with the band. Stood in front of the drumline up in the stands and shook what my mama gave me. Hee.

I think field show was awesome, but then, what do I know? I'm a first-year. XD But it was a ton of fun. To feel all those people's eyes on you, to hear their applause after each song, to be able to perform in such strong wind, it was the best. The wind really whipped up as soon as we got out on the field, and I was praying it would go away, but it never did. But we got through it really well, I think.

I saw so many grads. There was Chantelle and Abree and Tiffany and Missy and Sophie. It was crazy. After the game I went out with Tiffany, Donovan, Kent, Fish, Sal, Phil (who's a girl), and Phil's little brother Josh.

We went to a park and played tag for a little bit, then Kent lost his shoe and we kinda gave up on the game, then we ran around in the skate park until some real skaters came, so we walked out onto the basketball court an talked about things and people and college and high school. Finally, we drifted over to the playground and played "Let's Make a Date", an improv game that's a lot of fun. You take three bachelors or bachelorettes and give them weird characters, then have someone ask them two questions and try to figure out who they are. I was a nun. XD

Finally, we took Fish home because he had to go, then the rest of us went to Leatherby's two minutes before they closed.

"Can't you take some initiative? Ow! What was that?"
"Me taking some initiative."
"Oh. I thought you were trying to beat me to death with your forehead."

-Kim and Billy from Fortress by Michael Scanlan.

<3 = brittany

and you know it makes me sick to be on that list

Mood: Murr.
Listening To: "Ex-Girlfriend" by No Doubt.
Reading: Lord of the Flies by William Golding. (I'm almost done with it.)

You know what I really want to learn how to do?

Oil paint. Or just paint for that matter. I want to take a brush to canvas and paint.

But I can't find paint or canvas. And I'd be afraid of putting stuff on it in the first place. I have an idea, just nowhere to put it. X____x

I love fall so much, but it depresses me even when I don't have reason to be. I don't know. I just get really weird around autumn. Things kinda cave in or something, I dunno.

But homecoming's on Friday! I'm very excited. I can't wait to do the field show for the school and competition and stuff. Ooh yeah. I feel like there will be much rejoicing on my part. X3

We danced at play practice tonight, and I felt really overwhelmed, but I know I can get it if we keep doing it. You know, repetition is great for the growing mind. |8D

Ooh, ooh! I got a 91.7 on my Pre-Calc test! I danced much in that class. X3

I don't know what else to say. All I've been able to draw is headshots and sketches and static poses, and I want to learn or do more. I want to get better.

"My mother had a baby once."
-Jigger, Carousel.

<3 - brittany

dun dun dun da dun da dun da dun

Mood: Dancing. (Through life. harhar.)
Listening To: "Farandole" from our field show. X3
Reading: "Lord of the Flies" by William Golding

Is it lame if I go and look at field shows on MSC?
(for those of you who check out my deviantART account, yes, I'm asking again.

But homecoming's on FRIDAY! *rejoices*

I'm so excited. Who cares if I have to wear a 2X costume even though I'm only a medium?

Okay, I care. Especially 'cause it stinks, but that's beside the point. XD

I cannot wait. Seriously.

Longer post later. X3

<3 - brittany

and the ewe sheep aren't even keepin' score

Mood: Depressed, kinda.
Listening To: Nothing, but I have "June is Bustin' Out All Over" from Carousel stuck in my head.
Reading: "Lord of the Flies" by William Golding and "Night" by Elie Wiesel. I know, I'm AP-ing it all the way.

Sigh.

I don't know. I guess the beginning of fall gets me down no matter what I'm doing. I get really worried about my grades and parent/teacher conferences, and right now my grades are even doing good! One B+, one B, and six A's. I'd call that good. But I get, like, overly worried about math. Math kills me. I hate the stuff. Sure, I'm in Pre-Calc right now, but it still kills me.

And ohmagash. It was fracking cold this morning. I need gloves if I'm gonna keep doing Majestix. XD I froze my little tush off.

Little tush. Hah.

There isn't much to say. I fell asleep in Driver's Ed today. Ooh, that's news. I get so friggin' tired. But I shouldn't complain, other people come to school at 6:00 too. Mur.

Ah... I have drama tomorrow. That's reason enough to rejoice. Yessir.

But I'll end this here, since I probably bore you all to death, eh?

"I don't cause commotions, I am one."
-Elphaba

<3 - brittany

some postman is grooving to all our love letters

Mood: Sooooo much better than this morning.
Listening To: "Some Postman" by Presidents of the United States of America
Reading: "Lord of the Flies" by William Golding and "Night" by Elie Wiesel.

HAH! If you saw me this morning or all today before the football game, I'm sorry. You witnessed A VERY BAD HAIR DAY. Please contact your nearest beauty salon to report the sighting, then get your eyes checked. You may have gone blind.

XD I'm a dork.

But seriously. I got up too late (5:20. Who could call that late?) and my hair was like, POOF, in a big curly mess which doesn't look too bad. So then I tried to do it an it came out looking craptacular. Very bad. I had to wear my Majestix shirt to school because we had a football game to do the flag ceremony at, and then I realized I hadn't worn a shirt under it. So I had to stay in my sweltering hot hoodie all day. And I was just stressed out about field show and my mom might have to have back surgery, and blah. This combination made for a very bad day.

Except one person liked my hair. XD Only Vanessa. X3 I love her so much.

And after school, my mom's like, "We're gonna go get your hair cut." I didn't want to.... I just wanted to take a shower and try and fix my hair before the football game.

But she dragged me anyway. So we went to Inkley's to look at cameras first (I need one for Photography, and the cheapest one is $249! *dies*) then went to Great Clips to get me a $7.99 hair cut. I wanted a "flare" haircut where it's longer in the front and you stick it up, but my mom wanted to get a trim. I needed a change. So we made a compromise and the lady who cut my hair didn't do what we wanted, but I still love my new hair. Thank goodness, eh?

It's very cool.

HAH! Here it is. X3
<3 - brittany

it's clear to see that you've become obsessed

Mood: Tired, but still oh so happy. X3

Listening to: "Every Day I Love You Less And Less" by Kaiser Chiefs
Reading: "Wicked" by Gregory Maguire. I'm halfway through! (It's fetching long...)

Originally, yesterday at around 10:50, this post was going to be named. "I didn't make it." And I was going to start the post with perhaps an explicit word or two.

But here's the deal. We went to see the list around 10:45 or something, and my name was not on it. I cried. I stood there and I bawled. I couldn't believe it. I noticed that Lindsey had Carrie and Carolyn got Julie and Emily got Mrs. Mullin, and then I skipped back down to the chorus to see if maybe I missed myself. No. All I saw were, like, four Jensens. No Johnsons.

So, my mom took me out yard saling, and all I could do was cry. I was sooooooo bummed. I just wanted to go home.

So we finally got home around 11:47, and I saw that someone had left a message on our phone. It was Ms. LaForge (the director and drama teacher). She told me to call her. The message was only three minutes old. So I pounced on the phone and called. The dialogue went much like this.

LaForge: Hello, Brittany?
Me: Yeah.
LaForge: I'm just calling to apologize. I was looking through my cast lists and I realized that I had left your name off. I forgot to type it, or didn't see it, or something. I'm sorry.
Me: ... *standing there in open-mouthed amazement*
LaForge: Ah, have you seen the list yet?
Me: Yeah. *still standing there*
LaForge: Well, I'm sorry for any grief this may have caused.
Me: *finally kicking into the present* Thank you. Oh, thank you.
LaForge: Yeah. So, I'll see you on Tuesday?
Me: Yes, oh, yes, Thank you. Thank you so much.

Ohmagash. I had a hysterical freak-out after that. I was crying, my mom was crying, we were sooooo happy.

So yeah, I'm in. I'm in the chorus. !!!! X3

And Lindsey and Michael got Carrie and Billy.

But who cares? (sorry, guys) I'M IN!!!! <333333

Oh, but here's the thing. I'm sick with a sore throat and a runny nose. Killer.... I need some medicine. XD

<3 - brittany

the sheep aren't sleepin' any more

Mood: Fetching nervous.
Listening To: Some TV show my brother is watching, but "June Is Bustin' Out All Over" from Carousel is stuck in my head.
Reading: "Wicked" by Gregory Maguire

Ugh. Callbacks were last night. We had to sing "You'll Never Walk Alone" and I figured I'd do pretty good, but then we had to sing the part where it rockets up to E's and a high G. That is not my range. I am an alto almost through and through. If you want me to sing that part, expect me to sing softly. So I did sing, quieter than I should have, and I went home early. I didn't even get to read.

I understand that I still have a chance to get in the chorus, I understand all of that, but I feel like I've failed because I sang too quiet. My friends told me I hit every single note, but I don't think that LaForge could hear me way out in the audience. So now I'm really scared. I'm afraid I might not make it. Sure, I can sing (within my range), I can act, but dancing? ...Let's not go there.

The list is going to posted around 10:00, so my mom's taking me at 11:00. I'm shaking, and it's only 9:58. I feel sick, I feel like crying.

I cried all last night, and tears come whenever I think about callbacks. I'm so scared.

<3 - brittany