it doesn't change a thing but even so after twenty-five years it's nice to know

Mood: Not too good.
Listening To: "Do You Love Me?" from Fiddler on the Roof.
Reading: Book of Mormon, Doctrine and Covenants, Twelfth Night, The Imaginary Invalid.

Yep, it's my birthday.

And last night at midnight, it was a happy one.
Kenzie called me right as my clock changed to 12:00. And I was happy. <3
Thanks Kenzie.

But this morning,
I skidded into a telephone pole.
Killed the front right side of my mom's car.
I had to call my dad to save me.
He came. Only cared that I was okay.
I was late to Majestix. But they gave me a break because of the circumstances.

I had a test in AP Bio.
I had a test in water polo.
I sucked it up playing goalie today.
And I'm the goalie for our game tomorrow.

My mom has screamed at me.
I came home to an empty house.
She was at the neighbor's.
And not once has she said happy birthday.

I know I did screw up her car.
But I just want to know that she remembers.



<|3 = brittany

don't I make you laugh? should I try it harder?

Mood: I'm not sure. I'm living.
Listening To: "Not Pretty Enough" , Kasey Chambers. Story of my life. <3
Reading: Nothing really. Doctrine and Covenants and Book of Mormon, yo.

- So, Winter Ball was a freaking blast! Loved it, had a lot of fun, felt gorgeous. You know.
- My job is great. Flexible hours, a nice manager, just great. <3
- Majestix is coming right along. I'm really excited for competitions. We have a chance this year.
- I'm excited for drama competition too. Jess and I are co-captains of the humorous monologue team, and I'm competing in classical scenes with Sal. :D
- Water polo tryouts are tomorrow and Friday! Whoo!
- And Girl's Day is on Saturday. I'm going with Benjamin. :D

I don't know what else to say, and I'm running out of time.

Ta.

"I won't let go!"
"I know."
-Jake Fischer and Ben Randall from The Guardian.

<3 = brittany

if you wanna hit the high notes, you better be a diva!

Mood: Feeling good. :D
Listening To: "If You're Gonna..." by Natasha Bedingfield. (Now my theme song, thanks to Kenzie. :D)
Reading: Doctrine and Covenants and Book of Mormon! Whoo! 1.5 pages per day, baby!

So I just had an awesome week. The end.

Hah, but I'm gonna tell you all about it.

-So, I quit the play because I need a job because I really want to go to New York. That's all.
-My photography portfolio is looking awesome.
-2nd term is almost over!
-I got asked to Winter Ball. That great kid Zach Jensen finally asked me. :D
-I performed my monologue, "The Shadow Box (Maggie)", did freakin' awesome, in my opinion. I really want to compete with it. <3
-I went to an Urban Expressions colorguard clinic on Saturday. Urban Expressions is an independent colorguard. I went to a few classes, and Sumer, the choreographer, talked to Tami, my advisor, and told her that she wanted me for UEX. But, you can't be on an independent guard and a high school guard at the same time, so Tami said that Sumer would just have to wait until I graduated. But out of all the girls on the team, she wanted me! <3<3<3
-And, I got a job at Iceberg. WHOO! I start on Wednesday. <3

Ta.

"What is it you want, Mary? What do you want? You want the moon? Just say the word and I'll throw a lasso around it and pull it down. Hey. That's a pretty good idea. I'll give you the moon, Mary."
-George Bailey, It's a Wonderful Life.

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from God our heavenly father this blessed angel came

Mood: Calm.
Listening To: "God Rest Ye Merry, Gentlemen/We Three Kings" by Barenaked Ladies and Sarah McLachlan.
Reading: "Museum of Hoaxes" by Alex Boese.

Well.

I've had a busy, stressful week.

-Auditions are over. I'm in the pit choir. And that's all I'm going to say about it.
-Had a girl's night with Trish and Jess after auditions. Ate a lot of ice cream and watched (rather, slept through) Legend.
-Went to the temple last night with Caydee and Jess Coop. Had a ton of fun. =D
-Jess gave me a beanie she crocheted for Christmas. And she's knitting my dream scarf for me. Crimson and gold. GO GRYFFINDOR. I know, I'm a dork.
-Watched Pride and Prejudice last night with Caydee and Jess. Good movie. I managed to hate Mr. Darcy until the very end. And then I cried and decided he wasn't so bad after all. I'm going to read the book. <3


That's pretty much it.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Ta.

"Strange, isn't it? Each man's life touches so many other lives. When he isn't around he leaves an awful hole, doesn't he?"
-Clarence from It's A Wonderful Life.

<3 = brittany

grovel, grovel, cringe, bow, stoop, fall

Mood: Pretty good.
Listening To: "The Brothers Come to Egypt/Grovel, Grovel" from Joseph and the ATD.
Reading: The Doctrine and Covenants, yo.

So....

I'm still kinda on air. I got 3rd place in Mixed Media in the Art Show for a Gesso transfer of oranges titled "peel out". (Thanks, Tiff.) It was so cool. <3 First time I've gotten an award for arts.

-Joseph auditions are on Thursday. SO NERVOUS.
-Caydee's birthday was today. She can be convicted of a felony. =D Jess Coop and I baked a cake and took it to her today. =D
-I made a really cool personality mask. It's a plaster gauze mask of my face and painted with acrylic paint. I need to get a picture of it.
-I'm going to the temple on the 23rd. <3
-I might be asked to Winter Ball.
-I'm going on a date on the 26th, I'm just not sure of who I'm going with. But I know we're going ice skating. <3

But that's pretty much it.

Nothing majorly exciting, just things I think are important.
Because of course, we all know the world revolves around me. =D

Ta.

"I don't believe in free love!"
"Pity."
-Joseph and Mrs. Potiphar from Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat.

<3 = brittany

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then I saw it on your keyboard and you saw it on my sleeve

Mood: Pretty good. A bit tired, but good. =D
Listening To: "I Saw It On Your Keyboard" by hellogoodbye
Reading: Just finished The Da Vinci Code, right now all I'm reading are a scene and a monologue. Tell Me Another Story... and The Shadow Box.

So, Kenzer introduced me to this totally awesome band, hellogoodbye. They're freakin' AWESOME.

That's all.

I haven't posted for a long time.

-Camelot is over. I'm sad, but it couldn't go on forever, and I don't think I'd like it if it did. We put on five amazing shows and touched a lot of people. AND I learned how to dutch. =D
-I went to the Barenaked Ladies concert last Wednesday. AWESOME, I must say. I had a lot of fun.
-I have been without a bed for two weeks or so (My mom sold it, it's kind of a long story) . BUT we are getting a permanent bed soon. Soon, I say!
-Slept over at Kenzie's on Friday. Had fun with Diet Coke and Mentos. =D And talked about LOTS of things. Life, basically. <3 -School is kinda boring and not very stressful at the moment. I like it this way, but I'm afraid that I'm going to be flooded very soon. That's really all I've got to say. Nothing really absolutely marvelous from this end of the world.

Ta.

"I knowed I made a good choice."
"In what?"
"My best friend." -Mater and Lightning, Cars

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and he's so funny in his bright red shirt

we were all in love and we all got hurt.

Mood: Tired, confused.
Listening To: "White Houses" by Vanessa Carlton.
Reading: A Million Little Pieces by James Frey.

He said he was breaking up with her. He said he didn't want to be attached to anybody. He flirted with me all week. I was glad that he wanted to talk with me, joke with me, laugh with me. But last night he colored a picture from someone's "Pretty Pony Coloring Book". He showed it to Caydee, proud of what he'd done. I wanted to see it, but he wouldn't show it to me. I finally joked around a bit more and had him unfold it.

A pink pony with a yellow mane. Above the pony it said "Kim".

My heart fell, and I tried to keep a smile on my face even though that knife was twisting and biting its way into my heart.

He walked away and Caydee whispered, "I'm sorry." I tried to blow it off, tried to act like it didn't matter, it didn't hurt. She and I knew it did.

I know it's stupid and teenage and immature, but I am stupid and teenage and immature.

I've just never liked anyone the way I like him, and he doesn't see it. They call him "The Pimp of the Play" because he's a huge flirt and all the girls like him.

I just thought maybe he'd like me back.

"I create feelings in others that they themselves don't understand."
-Lightning McQueen, Cars.

<3 = brittany

and we carved our names in the proverbial wall and nothing much else really matters at all

Mood: Tired, confused kinda, stressed.
Listening To: "Autumn and Me" by Saving Jane
Reading: DOCTRINE AND COVENANTS.

Well, Kenzie's off to college for the third time this month, hah.

And I'm at home.

Sick because of homecoming.

I'll tell the story in my next entry.

I just wanted to say that I wasn't dead.

Just inactive.

In all senses of the word.

<3 = brittany

oh there ain't no love no montagues or capulets

Mood: Happy, but kinda sad.
Listening To: "I Bet You Look Good on the Dance Floor" by The Arctic Monkeys.
Reading: Leven Thumps and the Gateway to Foo by Obert Skye.

Holy cow. First week of school and I already had an assignment AND a test in Calculus. I don't like Steelman, either. And we've had a practice AP test in Biology, and the highest score in the class was 39%. And that was the genius kid. I got a 25%. BUT HOLY FAT COW. Seriously.

But everything else is pretty good. I've got Leni in two classes, Larissa in two classes, a few other people in a few other classes. =D

And field show is getting kinda stressful. We've only got the first song charting done, and we have three others to finish by Sept. 15. Oh dear.

Didn't do a heck of a lot this week. Hung with Michael and Dono a lot. Hung out with Lindsey some. Hung out with Elle and Kenzie some.

HAH. Went to Iceberg with Michael, Kenzie, and Elle the other day, and it was THE FUNNIEST. Holy cow. Laughed so much that night. Kenzie ran full-on into a door, slid down a wall. Elle "spoke" as this lady who was talking outside. BAHA. So funny. And we played BS in Iceberg as we were waiting for our food. SO MUCH FUN.

And I worked out with Kenzie yesterday. My legs are sore now.

And my mom and I gave Kenzie cups and plates and silverware and a blender for her college-ly pursuits. My mom figures that we owe her a ton, so it was all free of charge, of course. Michael and Kenz came by and grabbed them today. And both of them said that I look like I've lost weight. <3<3<3

So, that's how it's been the past week.

AUDITIONS ARE TOMORROW.
And Kenzie leaves earlyearlyearly Friday morning. Sadness.

"How's your heart?"
"It's a little bit broken."

-Michelle and Anna Foster, "Chasing Liberty".

<3 = brittany

today is where your book begins

Mood: THANKHEAVENS. Kinda.
Listening To: "Unwritten" by Natasha Bedingfield.
Reading: Leven Thumps and the Gateway to Foo by Obert Skye.

Hoo. It's been a little more than a month since I've written a blog entry. Quite a bit has happened since the 15th of July.

-Draper Days SUCKED. Really.
-Pioneer Day parade was pretty cool, actually. Saw Cori, saw Liz.
-Went to Lagoon on July 24th, got dropped by my crush, then spent a totally awesome day with Mak, Michael, Tiff, and Dono.
-Went to girl's camp, which was actually a lot of fun.
-Somewhere in there I did Ophir Days, which was awesome.
-Mak got 1st attendant in the Miss Tooele County Pageant, I think she deserved Miss Tooele County, but it's really good that she got 1st attendant.
-Went to history a bajillion times.
-Went to see Ty Herndon in concert (AND YAGERTOWN. WOO.) with Captain, Mak, and Michael. TON OF FUN.
-And band camp ended today. We got quite a lot done, and I'm pretty proud of myself and our girls.
-OH. AND I FINISHED MY HISTORY REPORTS. FINALLY.

I dunno what else to say. School starts on Monday, and I have mixed feelings about that. My schedule's somewhere in my house, but I'm too lazy to get it. I'll post it someday.

But I got all the classes I wanted. Advanced theatre, advanced photography, AP Calc, AP Biology, social dance, interior design, web page design. Yeah, I'm pretty excited, actually.

"There's no crying in baseball!"
-Jimmy Dugan to Evelyn Gardner in A League of Their Own.

<3 = brittany

she is the prom queen, I'm in the marching band

Mood: Strangely sorta happy.
Listening To: "Girl Next Door" by Saving Jane. (Dude, it's like the story of my LIFE.)
Reading: "Skud" by Dennis Foon.

Okay. "Girl Next Door" is my new favorite song. Especially the line that is the title of this blog. Because I am in the marching band, hah.

Anyway, so I'm bored out of my mind. I just want school to start already. Michael and Lindsey have been at EFY all week, Kenzie was at girl's camp, and I just don't talk to anyone else.

Mur. I've been overreacting about a lot of things, which won't be mentioned here. You can probably guess.

"Mater! What did I tell you about talking to the accused?"
"To not to."

-Sheriff and Mater from Cars.

<3 = brittany

the hardest thing is letting go of you

Mood: Tired, cold, bored, irritated.
Listening To: "One More Sad Song" by The All-American Rejects.
Reading: My History 1700 book.

Well, I got a 32 composite on the ACT. I'm really excited about that. 35 on English, 35 on Reading, 32 on Science, 25 on Math. So, I still need to retake it to get a higher math score.

But enough about that.

Saw Cars, Over the Hedge, Ice Age 2, and Pirates of the Caribbean 2 recently.

All of them were really good and really funny, but Cars and Pirates!2 were AWESOME.

Although Pirates!2 lacks an ending.

BUT IT'S FREAKING AWESOME, NEVERTHELESS.

L'anyhoodle, went to my ward campout with Lindsey last night, slept like a bear, got up, and didn't "wake up" for a few hours, hah.

And as a lovely ending note:
I wish some people would swallow their pride and TALK to me once in a while.

Ta.

"Dirt... This is a jar of dirt..."
"Yes..."
"...Is the jar of dirt going to help?"
"If you don't want it, give it back."
"No."
-Captain Jack Sparrow and Tia Dalma from Pirates of the Caribbean 2.

<3 = brittany

just pay me back with one thousand kisses

Mood: Tired.
Listening To: "I'll Cover You" from RENT.
Reading: "Quixote" by Michael Oeming...or something.

Went to Lagoon two days in a row this last week.

SO MUCH FUN.

First day with Lindsey, Meagan the Pruden, Jessica Lohmeyer, and Tiffany Davis.
Second day with Lindsey, Michael, and Mak.

Rode the White Rollercoaster, the Spider, the Bat, the Samurai (twice), and the Screamer (twice). Yeah, I'm feeling like a ride person now. =D

And we went to Lagoon-A-Beach, the best thing there. And even though M & M were fighting, it wasn't all that bad. Hah.

But now I'm dead tired, with matching bruises on my elbows (from heaven knows what), and I should be in bed because I have band in the morning. Bleh.

I might write more tomorrow or something. Maybe, I dunno.

"Money is the world's curse."
"May the Lord smite me with it. And may I never recover."

-Perchik and Tevye, "Fiddler on the Roof".

<3 = brittany

I should tell I blew the candle out just to get back in

Mood: Tired. Physically and emotionally.
Listening To: "I Should Tell You" from RENT.
Reading: The Truth About Forever by _____ Dessen

Well, I'm going to Manti for a day and a half. Getting away from this town called Tooele. I think I need it. We're going down to see the Manti Pageant, so I think it'll be fun and a bit enlightening.

I should be in bed.

I've been feeling kinda bitter and down the past few days. My parents fought, my mother and I fought, I've been feeling ignored and left behind.

Blah. I want this summer to be fun.

So far it's not turning out so good.

AND I HAVE A SEASON PASS TO LAGOON THAT I NEED TO USE.


"Call a donkey and get me to a manger!"
-Sister Mary Regina, Mother Superior; Nunsense.

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only thing to do is jump over the moon

Mood: Tired.
Listening To: "Leap of Faith" from RENT.
Reading: My e-mail.

It's been a while.

Well, we performed my play, and I think I did pretty well, and we won "Most Creative Set". Yeah. Consolation prize, yes, but I'm friggin' glad they acknowledged it. We had to paint 13 metal chairs. I painted at least 7 or 8. Grawr.

But you know.

The drama banquet was fun. I am now "Dutching Duchess" (I've never dutched in my life), I have the rights to the "apple bosom" jokes (How do ya like them apples?), and a piece of Emma's peach paint spill. Yeah, I have many things to will now. Hah.

I went to graduation, sat with Missy and Chantelle. Told Missy about her apple bosom jokes being given to me. We all laughed. They thought I was a junior, but thankfully, I am a lowly sophomore. I took pictures, I cried.

Now summer has started, and I'm bored out of my mind.

Vented to Tiffany a bit, cleaned the garage a bit, talked to Mak(who is in NEW YORK). Went to Majestix yesterday, wanted to shoot someone, came home, slept.

Slept some more.

And some more.

Yeah, I'm having a fun summer.

Mur.

"There are times when we're dirt broke, hungry, and freezing, and I ask myself, why the hell am I still living here?
[beat]
And then they call. And I remember."

-Mark, RENT.

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to reach the unreachable star

Mood: Kinda tired.
Listening To: "To Dream the Impossible Dream" from Man of La Mancha.
Reading: West Side Story and Romeo and Juliet. And like fifty billion other books.

I don't have much time, but I thought I'd give a little update.

-Things are going better with my mom.

-STATE FOR WATER POLO WAS AWESOME. Girls got 2nd, boys took state! And we stayed in the Park City Mariott. SO NICE.

-Sadie's was fun. <3

-My play sucks.

-And history 1700 is okay.

-My Spanish teacher is being nice since I cried in her class.

-The band is in California. I miss them. Especially one alto-sax-playin' boy in particular.

-SCHOOL IS ENDING.

So yeah, that's my life lately in a nutshell.

Water polo's over! And I have nothing to do in my time.

But I'ma go to bed now. Sorry for the short lame update.

Miguel: I'm a poet.
The Duke: They're putting people in prison for that?
Miguel: No, no, no, not for that.
The Duke: Too bad.

-Miguel de Cervantes and The Duke from Man of La Mancha.

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it's like a guarantee my new philosophy

Mood: Hanging on.
Listening To: "My New Philosophy" from You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown.
Reading: Angela's Ashes by Frank McCourt, Adaptation, and a few other things.

Well, you know. Same ol' , same ol' with the madre. No talky, mostly yelling or silence.

Yeah, I got in major trouble today. Bleh.

But I got a bunch of musicals from Lindsey. And tomorrow I go back to school. And I got the first grass stains of the summer. =D

More later. I don't have much time. Have to do math homework I forgot about. XD

"We gotta get the word out to every newsie in the city! We need some of those...
"Ambassadors?"
"Yeah, yeah. Okay, you guys go out and be, uh, am-bastards."

-Jack Kelly and David Jacobs from Newsies.

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'cause when she dances she goes and goes

Mood: I WANT SUMMER.
Listening To: "White Houses" by Vanessa Carlton.
Reading: It by Stephen King, Angela's Ashes by Frank McCourt, and The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe by C.S. Lewis.

Dangitall. It snowed this morning. I want summer now. We went to Salt Lake and gorged ourselves with food, hah.

Spring break has been really good. We drove up Smelter, "the road to nowhere", and talked about everything, then I went swimming with Lindsey, Kenzie, Michael, Sal, my little bro, and Kent. We hung out at Middle Canyon Elem. a lot and swung and laughed and ran and played. We danced in the rain. We sat around for hours. I had a wonderful Easter dinner.

Overall, I'd say it was a success.

I just want summer to come faster and stay longer. I can't wait.

"I found out what the secret to life is. Friends. Best friends."
-Ninny Threadgoode, "Fried Green Tomatoes".

<3 = brittany